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some fun life updates

it's been a minute!

I know it's been awhile, but I think part of the point of having a blog is for low-pressure sharing of life updates. Much of my life revolves around grad school and trying to not want to die? Perhaps that's a bit too macabre for you all. Right now, I'm in the last weeks of my spring semester of social work school, which was a program I believed I was going to drop out of--until I received a placement (practicum!) that happens to be remote. Which, according to my spouse, is the only realistic way I can work.

He's not wrong.
Even after the hysterectomy, I still experience bouts of pain. Chronic pain, some that gets worse due to random things. Which is why...

a bitch is therapymaxxing!

That is a phrase I made up today.
THERAPYMAXXING: When you are so fucked up in the head (not really, I'm being facetious) that you go to several different therapists at once, maximizing your healing and GROWTH!

No, really. I am therapymaxxing to the extreme. Most weeks, I see two different therapists to address my c-PTSD, which has been an adventure in and of itself. On Mondays, I see my primary therapist who was the person who suggested that I try EMDR (in-person) so that I could get out of my head and become more embodied. On Wednesdays, I haul ass to Union Square after work meetings before painfully exhausting and recounting certain triggering moments.

And every other week, I belong to a c-PTSD and chronic illness/pain group.
I cannot stress this enough:

this shit is so fucking hard.

What a rewarding experience it's been, but it's been exhausting
And I mean exhausting. I pass out for a few days at a time during a three-therapy session week, warning my colleagues and friends that I will not be able to respond to their texts, nor can I fully lean into the spontaneity that my ADHD often affords me. To be honest, the whole point of therapymaxxing is so that I can heal whatever wounds have been open, festering and oozing. This shit is hard.

but it's okay, because it's CONFERENCE/WORKSHOP SZN!

My mentor calls me one of the hardest working writers she knows, but that's because I'm crazy and put myself up for anything and everything. Am I doing too much? Who knows! But one of the things that I'm most excited for is the amount of in-person community building I'll get done this summer!


Friends, this is what I have to offer for you.
My fun life updates.
Hope you've all been well!
Toodles x
C


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